Disappointment, Tears and Delay again

August 2^nd the pre-op appointment: I am anxiously waiting in the lobby ready to meet Dr. Belnap again in a final weigh in and check-up before my surgery on the 15^th

Reading the latest Newsweek and sitting on a plush large black couch in the private room; reading about how the war is affecting us all and what a horrible thing it is… (what’s new really?) When in walks the Doc and begins the physical exam; prodding my stomach in the area he intends to operate on.

When he pulls back and looks down at his chart “hmmm” and a frown appears on his face. I immediately know ‘not good’ “How much weight have you lost?” He asks “28 pounds.” I reply. He flips through my chart again. “I need you to lose 25 more. Because this a laproscopic surgery I prefer my patients to have quick weight loss before the surgery so that when the fat cells pull away from the organs I have more wiggle room.” Sigh “okay.”

I held it together till I got to my car then a slew of profanities came out and then rushed in the tears. I called Ronda, Belnap did the same thing to her; she knows how I feel.

So once again I am waiting for my turn to have my surgery done. (sigh) just have to eat more veggies than I am now ( feeling like a rabbit) and work out more going from 5 days’ a week to 6 days a week. I will lose this weight and have my surgery.